Song of try (The Red Dot)
I f I didn’t try, I wouldn’t know,
If I don’t know, the fear will grow,
So I must try, then I know,
When I know, the fear will go.
“A piece of a plastic was hanging up in the air carried by the wind and before it hit the groud it changed its direction then stayed up hanging in the air again.”
My heart’s too big and it’s on fire.I’ll let you touch it, let you burn.
Feel the pain, feel alive.
A beautiful scar, you’ll have forever.
Change is constant. We plan, we travel, we go back, we leave again. But just like us and everything else, there must always be something different and we know that. That’s why we want to prepare ourselves for what’s coming by making resolutions.
But since we don’t know what’s next, we make plans and preparations. It’s good to know our shortcomings and the remedies we can do once we encounter the same situations.
Everything we have right now were once just imaginations and it’s in our instinct that we need to have some sort of plans in order not to get drawn by any current into unknown directions or be stuck in a certain level.
There’s a purpose why we keep changing. We renovate things to cope up with our present taste and the more we change the more we develop new challenges. We must all move with time. It’s never our intention to create the worst but no one wants to live without a purpose.
New Years are moments when we can simplify our past and have new goals to look forward to and fearlessly imagine ourselves becoming better. But ofcourse, New Year is a new year, we don’t know what’s going to happen but it’s good to have a basic plan.
Eventhough the world is ahead of us, we still take creative liberties to explore new angles of life so we cannot be disrupted by the unknown. There’s always parts of our plans that we break because we need to reply according those questions being asked. We fail because when reality hit us we also changed our priorities.
We need reasons to keep going. And reasons has always been about seeing new perspective, developing new plans and discovering ourselves. And since we always believed we could have done better, we continue to make new plans.
“When I was young my dream was to become a technician because I’m good at it. I have many clients who asks me repair their cars.
I’m happy with my life.
Sometimes when I’m not doing anything I just drive around my tricycle. We used to have a house here but we had to give up because we didn’t win the case and they had to demolish our houses to build a new apartment for rent but it’s okay, we’re not angry because I have my tricycle where I can sleep and it’s more breezy here better than the electric fan. I only go home to my children when it’s raining hard.
Saddest moment when my wife died, I didn’t think that I would lose her fast. It was horrible to lose her. It was unexpected. My wife was lovely and compassionate. At my age, I don’t dream anything but to be happy for the rest of my life, the same dream I had even when I was still a kid.
I’m happy when I see my grandchildren because they tickle me while I’m sleeping. They are naughty kids.
I just dream that all my grandchildren will finish school.”